Burned Out

Right now, that's where I am. Burnt out and tired of what I am doing. I desire to do big things, and when I try it becomes a big mess, my kids get tired, I lose my temper and I feel burnt out.
Sometimes I think God lets this happen on purpose, to show me how frail and weak I am, and how great he is. Other times I think it's all my own fault. (maybe it is a bit of both?)
But some days, my fire disappears and all is left is charcoal I feel black and empty and sad, and then there is something that is always there with me. That little light, that is just enough to get me going again, that reminder that I am not alone.
In the ecosystem we are learning that forests need wild fires, so that new life can form. I hope the same thing applies to people like me who have everything burned up inside, enough that they reach out in hope for new friendships, new lives to touch.
~Lael